[It's definitely only the latter. There's a long pause while Lightning herself tries to piece words together, as if this is her own secret she has to explain. It's not, but she's still feeling at a complete loss for them.
Eventually, she sighs.]
Yeah, I can. But he's not a bad person?
[Wow good job, Lightning. Totally nailed those words of comfort there. Something Auron couldn't figure out himself.]
[You know, he's kind of had first hand knowledge that Lightning isn't the best at these kinds of things, but not like this. He will not laugh because it would be rude.
He can't help but sound amused.]
No. No he's not. He's a lot like me. Been through a lot. Think that's why we started to be friends and then...somewhere it changed.
I don't really consciously know when it changed. Although I'm pretty sure he does because he kind of...uh...told me he liked me and I kind of...freaked out about it.
Which is why I took a while to figure out what to do.
Yes! I almost thought he was drunk when he told me because, why me?
I've been so used to being alone that I never thought anyone would consciously want to be with me. So I'm sure I'll need a lot of alcohol over the next few months as I figure all this out.
[She opens her mouth to say something aloud, rather than transmit it through her crystal, forgetting for a moment that that's what they're doing. It closes, and Lightning chooses not to say it. She shouldn't have to remind Auron that he doesn't remember her at all – he already knows.
Besides, this isn't about them. He needs to talk and work through things just as much as she does. The two of them can use someone to lean on, even if that someone also has no idea what they're doing, or will do going forward.]
Yeah. You'll be hearing from me soon. I'll hold you to that promise, and you can hold me to mine, too. First round's on me.
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[Is that disapproval? Or more like a sensation of "wait WHAT?" on Lightning's part.
Probably the latter. Embarrassment starts to form on Auron's end of the link, coloring his words.]
Can you see why I've been a little...confused about everything?
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Eventually, she sighs.]
Yeah, I can. But he's not a bad person?
[Wow good job, Lightning. Totally nailed those words of comfort there. Something Auron couldn't figure out himself.]
XD
He can't help but sound amused.]
No. No he's not. He's a lot like me. Been through a lot. Think that's why we started to be friends and then...somewhere it changed.
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How... how'd you know that things changed?
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Which is why I took a while to figure out what to do.
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[There's a pause while Lightning laughs to herself because this sounds and feels oddly familiar.]
I know the feeling. It's strange, isn't it?
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I've been so used to being alone that I never thought anyone would consciously want to be with me. So I'm sure I'll need a lot of alcohol over the next few months as I figure all this out.
You're welcome to join me.
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[... There's a long, telling pause. She might need a drink, or three for this so the timing of his invitation couldn't be better.]
He came back, you know.
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[He can't even imagine what that must be like for her. To have it all wiped out like it didn't matter. Except it did. Very much so.]
Whenever you want, Lightning. Or just to talk. Like we're doing now. I'll do my best and listen to you.
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Besides, this isn't about them. He needs to talk and work through things just as much as she does. The two of them can use someone to lean on, even if that someone also has no idea what they're doing, or will do going forward.]
Yeah. You'll be hearing from me soon. I'll hold you to that promise, and you can hold me to mine, too. First round's on me.
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